Sunday, January 1, 2012

Here's to 2012!

Happy New Year everyone!  I have been completely enjoying my time off since finishing up my student teaching.  It was a very long, hard seven weeks but I am finally done AND managed to get an A in the class thanks to the good communication I had with my professor and coordinators at my college.  They were able to see that it was obviously not true what the teacher was saying and what she was doing was very wrong.  Anyway, I am so very glad it is behind me now and I officially have my Master's Degree and am waiting on my teaching certificate.  Until then, and until I find a permanent position, I will be substitute teaching.  I am really looking forward to it. 

As far as my "Journey to Health" has been going, well the holidays took their toll on me again.  I got down to 185 at the end of my student teaching and this morning on the 1st was back to 190.  So still a 15 pound loss overall.  And I am now ready to have 2012 be my year to becoming the healthy person I know I can be. 

I have started another page with my 2012 goals on it (the link is on the right hand side).  I am going to work on daily/weekly goals, monthly goals and then overall goals that I hope to accomplish in 2012.  Some are small, some are really big, but I know if I put my mind to it I can accomplish anything.  I really want to look back on this year as the year I took control of my life.  Tomorrow I am meeting a friend at the gym to get started and hitting the grocery after for some healthy here we go!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

The countdown is on

Yep, I'm still here.  And I'm still managing to lose weight somehow, even though I am still doing bad on my tracking and my exercise.  Luckily being a teacher does provide lots of exercise and I come home exhausted most nights from standing all day and running up and down the stairs.  But unfortunately I think my reasons for weight loss have more to do with stress right now then anything else. 

I know not a lot of people read this but I want to explain and maybe it will just make me feel better.  In order to finish my masters degree I have to do two sets of student teaching.  My first seven weeks was at a high school teaching business.  I absolutely loved it and wished it would not end.  I left there feeling on top of the world and could not wait to become a teacher.  Starting at the beginning of October I went to teach 6th grade math.  And it has been nothing but downhill since then. 

I won't go into too many specifics but the teacher I am with has basically made me feel like dirt.  After my first observation she said she doubted anyone would ever hire me and at the end of last week told me that some people either have it or they don't and I obviously didn't.  I seriously cry every day on the way home.  Sometimes I have to go to the bathroom and cry between classes.  A few times I've broken down in front of her while she is giving me her wonderful "pep" talks but somehow I feel like that is what she is trying to do and have tried to stop.  I went and talked to my college professor and my university supervisor and I think they've managed to make me see its all on her end and I shouldn't listen to what she is saying.  Apparently the first teacher I was with said I was her best student teacher ever so that has to count for something, right? 

I only have two more weeks of this to get through.  Tomorrow is easy, its Friday so we do testing.  Next week there is no students at the school Monday and Tuesday and she is out Thursday and Friday.  So only one day with her next week.  And then the last week I am only supposed to teach a few days and then start pulling back and letting her take the class back over.  Gladly!!!  After that I am graduated and can go find a job of my own.  And hope she hasn't made me doubt my ability to teach too much. 

Anyway...all that to say that I don't eat much at school because of my nerves.  And when I do get home its just one meal and then I'm so tired I head to bed.  So once this is all over with I will be able to blog more regularly, BUT I have a feeling I will really need to start watching my food and getting that exercise in. Especially with the holidays coming up.  But I am looking forward to it!  My little mini goal is to celebrate Christmas in the 170's.  I think it can be done! 

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Still here plodding along!

You know, I was so excited about starting this blog but I really am NOT good at maintaining it.  How do people manage to post every single day when I can't even get one post up a week!  It's been two weeks since I last posted.  I really can't find the time to come here every couple of days and write a bit about what I've been doing?  I know I am busy but I so enjoy reading other people's blogs and really wanted this to be something more than it is.  I wanted new friendships and motivation and people to help me along this journey that understand where I am.  But obviously I am not going to get that posting once or twice a month...any advice would be greatly appreciated! 

That said I really have not been rocking my goals for Biz's Holiday Challenge either, but I have been trying and it is all I can ask for.  I have managed to not gain weight over the past two weeks and even managed to lose .6.  Not awe inspiring but without doing any tracking at all I am very pleased with that.  My schedule makes it very easy to not overeat during the day.  I am teaching 5 classes of 6th grade math and it is just non stop.  And they have to be taken everywhere so it is up and down stairs constantly.  I may not be making it to the gym, but I am certainly getting my exercise. 

I have five more weeks of this and then I can start looking for my own job teaching.  I am very excited about that.  The one good thing is that I technically can't teach until Jan 1 when my teaching certificate will be processed.  So from November 18th to then I will be off work and off school.  That is six weeks that I can completely focus on myself and getting healthy.  Right during the holiday season too so I am hoping that the lack of stress from work and school will help me to get through the holidays and come out the other side more in shape and weighing less! 

So while I can't say I have done wonderful on my goals (especially the tracking, which I have already got back to today!) I have at least done them part of the time and I am not disappointed in myself.  If I didn't have this challenge to lean on I could so easily be sitting here more out of shape and 14 pounds heavier instead of the opposite.  Hope everyone else is having a great challenge too, I'm off to make my rounds of the blog world. 

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Finally finding my groove!

Well, so much for posting more often. That is definitely my number one goal this week! I even had a decent week to blog about and still didn't sit down here and update.

So I guess I need to back up a bit on my challenge results for last week . My first goal is to lose "something" each week. Last week my weigh in was 195.6 for a loss of 1.4. That works for me! I wanted to track my WW points five days, I only tracked 2. Still better than the zero I did the week before. I also wanted to exercise five days, I got four days in! Overall a very successful week to me.

Now this week (week 2) of the challenge. My weigh in was 192.6 for a loss of 3 pounds! Wow, wow, wow. That also gave me my little star for losing 5% of my weight. Those little stars make me so happy. My next goal for 10% is 184.5.  Seems so unreal I could be there soon after starting at 205. 

Sorry, digressing a bit.  Tracking was much better, I did five days out of seven.  So I'm getting better.  Working out...that's where I dropped the ball.  I didn't even get one day in.  So that is an area I really need to work on because I have big plans for next year in the fitness department.  And I have already started off this week on the right foot because I just got back from the gym.

I don't know why but I feel I've finally gotten into the groove again of eating well and exercising.  I just hope I can make it last through the holidays.  I want to start out 2012 a better me!  Good luck to everyone else on the challenge this week.  Looking forward to seeing how everyone is doing.   

Sunday, September 11, 2011

New week - new me!

I really need to get better at posting regular updates.  Its again been a busy few weeks.  I am now the actual "teacher" teaching in my classroom while the real teacher observes me, so I have been embracing lesson plans and smart aleck teenagers.  I am still really enjoying it though so maybe this is what I am meant to do. 

Food wise - only ok.  I still do not eat a lot at school but tend to make up for it when I get home at night. And the scale has been hopping UP and down more than I like.  One day I even was back up to 200 lbs, ack!  But this morning I am again at 197.2, so I feel a little better about it.  I need to be serious about tracking, that is why I am paying for WW Online, so why do I not just use it already?!?  Exercise has been non existent but I am making a plan today to work on both food and exercise for the upcoming week. 

I am once again entering Biz's holiday challenge.  I believe it started Labor Day and will run through the 1st of January.  My goals are to 1)just lose something each week, even if it is only .2, at least it is going down and 2)to exercise 5 days a week (no time limit this time, just get moving) and 3. to track my food 5 days a week.  That last goal is a new one but I think it will really help me to get a handle on my eating.  Of course ideally I am aiming for 7 days a week, but I am trying to work on my "all or nothing" mentality a bit. 

Good luck to everyone else int he challenge and ..HERE WE GO!

Friday, August 26, 2011


I am sooooo glad it is Friday.  This was my first full week doing my student teaching and it is hard to get used to being on my feet all day.  I am working with high school kids and you cannot let up for a second with them.  But I am absolutely loving it so far.  I sometimes realize what a great time I'm having and hope that I have finally found my calling.  Only took me 40 years! 

I actually lost again this week without any exercise (which I am so trying to get back into).  I have to be honest that on Thursday we were so busy with classes that I completely skipped lunch.  I wonder if that contributed a bit to my Friday weigh in.  But I was so ravenous when I got home that night I really felt like I made up for skipping that meal.  I don't want to do that again though, it didn't make me feel very good. 

We have a really busy weekend with two birthday partys and dinner at a good friend's house so that worries me a bit too.  But I am just going to practice portion control as much as I can and really, really try to meet a friend at the gym Saturday and Sunday.  Money is so tight with me not working for pay but I just keep holding on to that membership...sigh!  Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! 

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Back Again

Well I sort of disappeared for the entire month of July but I am going to try this again.  I honestly can't say I did great in July, it was a pretty stressful and busy time, but I did attempt to be healthy.  In the past six weeks I quit my job, went on a camping vacation, had some great time off with my daughter and began my student teaching.  Somewhere along the way I managed to lose a little weight but I think it was more because of blistering hot and humid heat on my camping trip (that made me not want to eat or drink anything) and not having time to eat in the last week teaching.  First time in a long time that I actually lost weight on a vacation instead of gained.  But...I will take it for what it is, and being below 200 has really motivated me to stay that way for good!!! 

I am really excited about doing my student teaching and for this first seven weeks I am helping an awesome teacher with her accounting and computer applications class.  My bachelor's is in accounting so I feel pretty comfortable with it and I am enjoying this way more than I had hoped.  She is teaching me so much I feel that I may actually be able to teach a class of my own someday.  Because we're in the school all day I HAVE to plan my lunches and snacks because there is no where else to eat.  And I only get 20 minutes.  I think this is really going to help me and make me finally have a meal plan for the week.  The only thing I have to watch is being ravenous when I get home and grabbing anything.  So...on that note I am off to plan my meals for the week and have a good healthy grocery trip!  I believe there is a gym trip in my future today also.  If anyone happens to read this I hope everyone has a wonderful and healthy weekend!