Yep, I'm still here. And I'm still managing to lose weight somehow, even though I am still doing bad on my tracking and my exercise. Luckily being a teacher does provide lots of exercise and I come home exhausted most nights from standing all day and running up and down the stairs. But unfortunately I think my reasons for weight loss have more to do with stress right now then anything else.
I know not a lot of people read this but I want to explain and maybe it will just make me feel better. In order to finish my masters degree I have to do two sets of student teaching. My first seven weeks was at a high school teaching business. I absolutely loved it and wished it would not end. I left there feeling on top of the world and could not wait to become a teacher. Starting at the beginning of October I went to teach 6th grade math. And it has been nothing but downhill since then.
I won't go into too many specifics but the teacher I am with has basically made me feel like dirt. After my first observation she said she doubted anyone would ever hire me and at the end of last week told me that some people either have it or they don't and I obviously didn't. I seriously cry every day on the way home. Sometimes I have to go to the bathroom and cry between classes. A few times I've broken down in front of her while she is giving me her wonderful "pep" talks but somehow I feel like that is what she is trying to do and have tried to stop. I went and talked to my college professor and my university supervisor and I think they've managed to make me see its all on her end and I shouldn't listen to what she is saying. Apparently the first teacher I was with said I was her best student teacher ever so that has to count for something, right?
I only have two more weeks of this to get through. Tomorrow is easy, its Friday so we do testing. Next week there is no students at the school Monday and Tuesday and she is out Thursday and Friday. So only one day with her next week. And then the last week I am only supposed to teach a few days and then start pulling back and letting her take the class back over. Gladly!!! After that I am graduated and can go find a job of my own. And hope she hasn't made me doubt my ability to teach too much.
Anyway...all that to say that I don't eat much at school because of my nerves. And when I do get home its just one meal and then I'm so tired I head to bed. So once this is all over with I will be able to blog more regularly, BUT I have a feeling I will really need to start watching my food and getting that exercise in. Especially with the holidays coming up. But I am looking forward to it! My little mini goal is to celebrate Christmas in the 170's. I think it can be done!
