Yep, I'm still here. And I'm still managing to lose weight somehow, even though I am still doing bad on my tracking and my exercise. Luckily being a teacher does provide lots of exercise and I come home exhausted most nights from standing all day and running up and down the stairs. But unfortunately I think my reasons for weight loss have more to do with stress right now then anything else.
I know not a lot of people read this but I want to explain and maybe it will just make me feel better. In order to finish my masters degree I have to do two sets of student teaching. My first seven weeks was at a high school teaching business. I absolutely loved it and wished it would not end. I left there feeling on top of the world and could not wait to become a teacher. Starting at the beginning of October I went to teach 6th grade math. And it has been nothing but downhill since then.
I won't go into too many specifics but the teacher I am with has basically made me feel like dirt. After my first observation she said she doubted anyone would ever hire me and at the end of last week told me that some people either have it or they don't and I obviously didn't. I seriously cry every day on the way home. Sometimes I have to go to the bathroom and cry between classes. A few times I've broken down in front of her while she is giving me her wonderful "pep" talks but somehow I feel like that is what she is trying to do and have tried to stop. I went and talked to my college professor and my university supervisor and I think they've managed to make me see its all on her end and I shouldn't listen to what she is saying. Apparently the first teacher I was with said I was her best student teacher ever so that has to count for something, right?
I only have two more weeks of this to get through. Tomorrow is easy, its Friday so we do testing. Next week there is no students at the school Monday and Tuesday and she is out Thursday and Friday. So only one day with her next week. And then the last week I am only supposed to teach a few days and then start pulling back and letting her take the class back over. Gladly!!! After that I am graduated and can go find a job of my own. And hope she hasn't made me doubt my ability to teach too much.
Anyway...all that to say that I don't eat much at school because of my nerves. And when I do get home its just one meal and then I'm so tired I head to bed. So once this is all over with I will be able to blog more regularly, BUT I have a feeling I will really need to start watching my food and getting that exercise in. Especially with the holidays coming up. But I am looking forward to it! My little mini goal is to celebrate Christmas in the 170's. I think it can be done!
4 comments:
Oh my goodness Tracy. That is horrible what that teacher is doing. Why are people so nasty, woman in particular? I am a nurse and I totally understand what you're going through. Nurses are notorious for "eating their young." Nice huh! I cried nearly everyday for my first few years out of nursing school and I've only been a nurse for 5 years! Nursing was a second career for me. It was ridiculous to be in my mid 30s crying because of work. I have finally found my niche and work on a really great unit with supportive people. I would never treat anyone the way I have been treated.
Please don't let that woman's words get to you. She is obviously miserable and taking it out on you. I know that this is easier said than done. I'm sure someday when you are assigned a student teacher you will be the kind, nurturing mentor you wish you had during this experience. Hang in there. It's almost over thank goodness.
Hi Tracy! I have 4 kids. And I personally have gone through 19 years of schooling.
One thing I know is that certain teachers have a HUGE chip on their shoulders and they spread their misery to others.
Example, the phys. ed. teacher who never got A's in phys. ed. and now doesn't want to give any A's to her students.
Example, a third grade teacher with an aching knee that required her whole class of little kids to suffer with her.
I could give you dozens of these examples, but we both know that none of these people deserved this crap. You don't either.
That teacher has *no right* to say those things to you. If she was a better person, she wouldn't have done that.
A jackass professor at law school pulled me to the side to tell me that I would never make it through law school. Guess what? I've been a lawyer for 15 years now.
This has happened to *many* of us. And we still somehow survive and prove these people wrong. Success and happiness is the best revenge.
:-) Marion
Hi Tracy, sorry to hear about the teacher from hell but glad to hear you're losing!! Hopefully since you posted this, you're still maintaining your loss and have gotten that awful woman out of your life. Good luck with the upcoming Holidays(I am already struggling) and, finding your own group of students to teach!!
So sorry to hear that Tracy - I hope you don't listen to that nasty teacher and her "pep" talks!
I hope you are having a wonderful Christmas!! Hugs!
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